Mark Oliver's World

Posted: 27/03/2021

It's been a year!

January 2020 I lost my twin brother at the age of 41. I wanted to write something about him.

A year has passed since you left. It feels only yesterday.

The year has gone so fast, and with so much pain for not only the family, but the world too.
Its been so hard not having you here, but even harder that I am unable to be with the rest of the family.

You have missed so much of my son this year, going to school, becoming 5. He has grown so much, and misses his Uncle D, and all of his friends and family because of COVID-19.
I cannot give him the life he wants, only the safety he needs.

We miss going to the parks, seeing friends, hugging people. Even simple things like walking past people on the same pathway.

My anxiety has grown so much in this time that I struggle to leave the house, and I'm so paranoid about cleaning hands and avoiding people.

This year has been full of fear, and sorrow.

10:55am 8th January 2020 will forever be the worst moment of my life. It was the moment that you left us. Mum and i were there holding your hands as you went peacefully. I felt you leave. I still do now.
You just stopped breathing, and left. You knew Mum and I were there with you, and you decided you had fought enough, and just stopped. It was the best for you, and the worst for us. I don't wish you had stayed, you were never coming all the way back, but I still wish you were here.

My partner in life, childhood, innuendo, joy, happiness, sorrow, movies and gaming.

You are missed everyday.

I love you D.


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