Posted: 08/01/2023
Three Years Have Gone
D,
3 years have gone by, and it feels like yesterday. So much has happened, yet so little too.
Families have wained, friendships needed rekindling, and through it all there has been that feeling of emptiness and loss.
3 years without a part of me, 3 years without my whole heart, 3 years without my brother, 3 years trying to find my way back to being "me".
Every day, you have been there, watching me, reminding me. Every day you have been so far away. Every day you have been so utterly missed.
I ask myself, why did this happen, but I realise, there is no rhyme or reason; only "life". You lived your life with joy and abandon, with fun and laughter, with a sense of giving and openness and you loved freely too.
The one thing that will always make me sad is watching our kids have so much fun together and you not being here to share.
My heart still hurts you are not here, and the grief does not lessen, but I have grown around it, tamed it and smothered its screaming noise with the love and memories of us.
Love, M.
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